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Darling,

It seems like u don't want to face the problem. But it has been existing already, for a long time, larger and more complicate. And since I'm now in a state of awareness, I've bound duty to solve it with you. Or it will be unfair to HER.

U know, from the day I found ur truth, the happier we are together, the more guilty I feel. It was you who were to blame, but then WE. I'm not that innocent anymore.

I know u are now in an embarassing situation where u have put urself into, and I'm even more embarassed and passive, not knowing who I am, where we are now and we are leading to. I'm blinded. It really upsets me.

No matter who you love more, I envy her. She met u first and became 'legitimate' , most of all, she is the one who goes all the way with u when u r going through all these pains in life. Just like what u've done for me. That must be something. She did what I would like to do for u. But now I've no chance to contribute, and of course, I don't want that I would be given the chance...

If it'd be half year ago, I would have been quit without hesitation to save you two complete. But this time, God forgive me, I want to be selfish and leave something for myself. No compromise. No give in.

After thinking too much in my life, I decide to dump the way I used to be. Try to think less. Try to simplify. Away from all the ethnics,responsibilities,all the possible results,all the SHEs and YOUs, all the factors I would be thinking in my past thoughts, I only listen to one voice in my heart, a simply three words voice: I WANT YOU. I won't let u slip away in my life. And in order to get it, I must be ready and strong enough to undertake everything, all the possibly negative results. At least, I have tried, I won't regret. And if I win this time but struggle a lot and lose finally, I won't complaint, I deserve it. I rob of u from someone else, it's the price of robbery.

Maybe we should cool down for a while until u decide what kind of action to take, although I hope it won't last for too long. It would be tough for me to keep myself away from u, I'll try...help you to make the final decision.

Don't be shilly-shally.

Don't fancy about perfect solution.

Be brave to make up your mind.

Be brave to take the responsibility of what u've done and what u've decided.

Be brave to undertake the loss.

I'd be glad to accept ur choice, whatever it is.

Be man, darling.

Be my brave man.